"Poor child!" said Foster,--and his dry old heart, I verily believe, vouchsafed a tear, "I'm sorry for her!"Were I to describe the perfect horror of the spectacle, the reader might justly reckon it to me for a sin and shame.For more than twelve long years I have borne it in my memory, and could now reproduce it as freshly as if it were still before my eyes, Of all modes of death, methinks it is the ugliest.Her wet garments swathed limbs of terrible inflexibility.
She was the marble image of a death-agony.Her arms had grown rigid in the act of struggling, and were bent before her with clenched hands; her knees, too, were bent, and--thank God for it!--in the attitude of prayer.
Ah, that rigidity! It is impossible to bear the terror of it.It seemed,--I must needs impart so much of my own miserable idea,--it seemed as if her body must keep the same position in the coffin, and that her skeleton would keep it in the grave; and that when Zenobia rose at the day of judgment, it would be in just the same attitude as now!
One hope I had, and that too was mingled half with fear.She knelt as if in prayer.With the last, choking consciousness, her soul, bubbling out through her lips, it may be, had given itself up to the Father, reconciled and penitent.But her arms! They were bent before her, as if she struggled against Providence in never-ending hostility.Her hands!
They were clenched in immitigable defiance.Away with the hideous thought.The flitting moment after Zenobia sank into the dark pool--when her breath was gone, and her soul at her lips was as long, in its capacity of God's infinite forgiveness, as the lifetime of the world!
Foster bent over the body, and carefully examined it.
"You have wounded the poor thing's breast," said he to Hollingsworth, "close by her heart, too!""Ha!" cried Hollingsworth with a start.
And so he had, indeed, both before and after death!
"See!" said Foster."That's the place where the iron struck her.It looks cruelly, but she never felt it!"He endeavored to arrange the arms of the corpse decently by its side.
His utmost strength, however, scarcely sufficed to bring them down; and rising again, the next instant, they bade him defiance, exactly as before.
He made another effort, with the same result.
"In God's name, Silas Foster," cried I with bitter indignation."let that dead woman alone!""Why, man, it's not decent!" answered he, staring at me in amazement.
"I can't bear to see her looking so! Well, well," added he, after a third effort, "'t is of no use, sure enough; and we must leave the women to do their best with her, after we get to the house.The sooner that's done, the better."We took two rails from a neighboring fence, and formed a bier by laying across some boards from the bottom of the boat.And thus we bore Zenobia homeward.Six hours before, how beautiful! At midnight, what a horror!
A reflection occurs to me that will show ludicrously, I doubt not, on my page, but must come in for its sterling truth.Being the woman that she was, could Zenobia have foreseen all these ugly circumstances of death, --how ill it would become her, the altogether unseemly aspect which she must put on, and especially old Silas Foster's efforts to improve the matter,--she would no more have committed the dreadful act than have exhibited herself to a public assembly in a badly fitting garment!
Zenobia, I have often thought, was not quite ****** in her death.She had seen pictures, I suppose, of drowned persons in lithe and graceful attitudes.And she deemed it well and decorous to die as so many village maidens have, wronged in their first love, and seeking peace in the bosom of the old familiar stream,--so familiar that they could not dread it, --where, in childhood, they used to bathe their little feet, wading mid-leg deep, unmindful of wet skirts.But in Zenobia's case there was some tint of the Arcadian affectation that had been visible enough in all our lives for a few months past.
This, however, to my conception, takes nothing from the tragedy.For, has not the world come to an awfully sophisticated pass, when, after a certain degree of acquaintance with it, we cannot even put ourselves to death in whole-hearted simplicity? Slowly, slowly, with many a dreary pause,--resting the bier often on some rock or balancing it across a mossy log, to take fresh hold,--we bore our burden onward through the moonlight, and at last laid Zenobia on the floor of the old farmhouse.
By and by came three or four withered women and stood whispering around the corpse, peering at it through their spectacles, holding up their skinny hands, shaking their night-capped heads, and taking counsel of one another's experience what was to be done.
With those tire-women we left Zenobia.
