"I haven't.I never wear evening clothes."Jo would pass a futile hand over the top of his head, as was his way when disturbed."I just thought you'd like them.I thought every girl liked long white gloves.Just," feebly, "just to--to have.""Oh, for pity's sake!"
And from Eva or Babe, "I've GOT silk stockings, Jo."Or, "Youbrought me handkerchiefs the last time."
There was something selfish in his giving, as there always is in any gift freely and joyfully made.They never suspected the exquisite pleasure it gave him to select these things, these fine, soft, silken things.There were many things about this slow-going, amiable brother of theirs that they never suspected.If you had told them he was a dreamer of dreams, for example, they would have been amused.Sometimes, dead- tired by nine o'clock after a hard day downtown, he would doze over the evening paper.At intervals he would wake, red-eyed, to a snatch of conversation such as, "Yes, but if you get a blue you can wear it anywhere.It's dressy, and at the same time it's quiet, too." Eva, the expert, wrestling with Carrie over the problem of the new spring dress.They never guessed that the com- monplace man in the frayed old smoking jacket had banished them all from the room long ago; had banished himself, for that matter.In his place was a tall, debonair, and rather dangerously handsome man to whom six o'clock spelled evening clothes.The kind of man who can lean up against a mantel, or propose a toast, or give an order to a manservant, or whisper a gallant speech in a lady's ear with equal ease.The shabby old house on Calumet Avenue was transformed into a brocaded and chandeliered rendezvous for the brilliance of the city.Beauty was here, and wit.But none so beautiful and witty as She.Mrs.-- er--Jo Hertz.There was wine, of course; but no vulgar display.There was music; the soft sheen of satin; laughter.And he, the gracious, tactful host, king of his own domain----"Jo, for heaven's sake, if you're going to snore, go to bed!" "Why--did I fall asleep?""You haven't been doing anything else all evening.A person would think you were fifty instead of thirty."And Jo Hertz was again just the dull, gray, commonplace brother of three well-meaning sisters.
Babe used to say petulantly, "Jo, why don't you ever bring home any of your men friends? A girl might as well not have any brother, all the good you do."Jo, conscience-stricken, did his best to make amends.But a man whohas beenpetticoat-ridden for years loses the knack, somehow, of comradeship with men.
One Sunday in May Jo came home from a late-Sunday-afternoon walk to find company for supper.Carrie often had in one of her schoolteacher friends, or Babe one of her frivolous intimates, or even Eva a staid guest of the old-girl type.There was always a Sunday-night supper of potato salad, and cold meat, and coffee, and perhaps a fresh cake.Jo rather enjoyed it, being a hospitable soul.But he regarded the guests with the undazzled eyes of a man to whom they were just so many petticoats, timid of the night streets and requiring escort home.If you had suggested to him that some of his sisters' popularity was due to his own presence, or if you had hinted that the more kittenish of these visitors were probably ****** eyes at him, he would have stared in amazement and unbelief.
This Sunday night it turned out to be one of Carrie's friends."Emily," said Carrie, "this is my brother, Jo."Jo had learned what to expect in Carrie's friends.Drab-looking women in the late thirties, whose facial lines all slanted downward.
"Happy to meet you," said Jo, and looked down at a different sort altogether.A most surprisingly different sort, for one of Carrie's friends.This Emily person was very small, and fluffy, and blue-eyed, and crinkly looking.The corners of her mouth when she smiled, and her eyes when she looked up at you, and her hair, which was brown, but had the miraculous effect, somehow, of looking golden.
Jo shook hands with her.Her hand was incredibly small, and soft, so that you were afraid of crushing it, until you discovered she had a firm little grip all her own.It surprised and amused you, that grip, as does a baby's unexpected clutch on your patronizing forefinger.As Jo felt it in his own big clasp, the strangest thing happened to him.Something inside Jo Hertz stopped working for a moment, then lurched sickeningly, then thumped like mad.It was his heart.He stood staring down at her, and she up at him, until the others laughed.Then their hands fell apart, lingeringly.
"Are you a schoolteacher, Emily?" he said.
"Kindergarten.It's my first year.And don't call me Emily, please.""Why not? It's your name.I think it's the prettiest name in the world." Which he hadn't meant to say at all.In fact, he was perfectly aghast to find himself saying it.But he meant it.
At supper he passed her things, and stared, until everybody laughed again, and Eva said acidly, "Why don't you feed her?"It wasn't that Emily had an air of helplessness.She just made him feel he wanted her to be helpless, so that he could help her.
Jo took her home, and from that Sunday night he began to strain at the leash.He took his sisters out, dutifully, but he would suggest, with a carelessness that deceived no one, "Don't you want one of your girl friends to come along? That little What's-her-name-Emily, or something.So long's I've got three of you, I might as well have a full squad."For a long time he didn't know what was the matter with him.He only knew he was miserable, and yet happy.Sometimes his heart seemed to ache with an actual physical ache.He realized that he wanted to do things for Emily.He wanted to buy things for Emily--useless, pretty, expensive things that he couldn't afford.
